5 Years Ago... Even though I was working two jobs, I never felt tired. It could've been because I was 22 years old and I didn't need sleep. But it was something else that kept me alive everyday. I found a new love to share with you. We loved each other as best friends, but that was different. This was a new found way for us to appreciate each other. It wasn't easy making the transition from friends to boyfriend and girlfriend. There were days that were harder than others. Dealing with a 21 year old young woman can be rough on a dude who is still trying to grow within himself. But your annoying ass still made everyday worth looking forward to. The first date was at In-N-Out, and I still can see that moment in my mind so vividly. You were beautiful as always. So warm and inviting. Tender and kind... I'm talking about the food. But you babe! Yeah, you looked good too! Waking up every morning, knowing that I had that one person to go to if I needed anything was a new and beautiful feeling. 4 Years Ago A very eventful year. Probably us at our "stoner" peak. But aye we was still doing adult things and making big moves. We moved in together with some roommates. Having our own place was dope. We had the freedom to live and learn on our own, but we got to experience it together. Going to Santa Cruz for our first dating anniversary and eating the most smackin burger in California. Going to Oakland A's opening day and watching them unveil their new big screen. Going to Hippie Hill for 4/20 and watching Sam literally cry from Cards Against Humanity. You coming to youth baseball games and root for the umpire. Seeing Chromeo and The Glitch Mob for the first time. Going all the way down to San Diego to watch J Cole, Big Sean, and YG go Brazy. Taking our first camping trip together with your family right before going on our first real vacation together in LA. You saw me become a Dodgers fan over the span of one week. A$AP Rocky, Tyler, and Based God, yes. Having photo shoots with our very tiny kitty cat, and spending our first Christmas with her. But one of the most memorable moments was when we were hanging out at our house with Forrest. He was chilling right there on the couch with me and I remember looking down and thinking to myself that I could see myself being a dad. But not because I selfishly wanted a child, but because I wanted to share that experience with you, and only you. 3 Years Ago I guess I spoke a lot into existence this year! Because I fucking knocked you up. Me. Anthony. The guy who used to watch So You Think You Can Dance with you. The guy who would give you advice on your relationships with other dudes. The guy your friends would tell you would be your future husband and you'd be like "Eww no, we're just friends." Well guess what world, I really broke the friend zone when I put a baby in my best friend. Deadass. I still get hyped thinking about it. The feeling you gave me when you surprised me with a present letting me know that I was going to be a father is still indescribable. The constant love you shared with me everyday allowed me to become a father. You did all of this. You are everything. You gave birth to our beautiful baby boy. Pregnancy kicked your ass, but there was no where I would rather have been then right there with you every step of the way. You really grew our child inside of you, and I can never tell you how much I appreciate the sacrifice! I would love to talk about our perfect tiny baby that we met on December 22nd at 2:30 pm, but this is about you and only you. 2 Years Ago Now shit really got real. We were parents for the first time. Somehow I felt like we didn't know what we were doing, yet we did know what we were doing all at the same time. Most days were easy because he was such a good boy, but man some of those nights were long too. Waking up at 3 am to change an entire outfit because he had some explosive bowel movements definitely made me question whether I had it in me or not to really do this dad thing. But you were so supportive. Everyday giving me encouragement and letting me know that I was a good dad. Helping me understand how important it was to be a loving and caring father. Teaching me and guiding me with your motherhood skills. You was really out there doing the mommy thing, I see you girl. A lot of women don't got what it takes to really be a champion mother, but you take the crown. All while still loving and caring for me as a man, a friend... and a fiancé. That was crazy! I can't believe I asked you to be with me for the entirety of my life. That's like, a really huge commitment. But you said yes! And showed me that commitment is a beautiful thing. Exactly 1 Year Ago I'm standing on the beach, staring out at the ocean thinking about my life. I've come a long way as a man. And while I'm still learning how to be a father, I'm also still learning how to be a great companion. Do I really have what it takes to lead a good life? Can I really be a great father to my son? What if I fail? And as I turn around, and see you in your wedding dress, all of my worries that I've ever had go away. You are the answer to every question I have ever had about myself. The fact that you chose me to be the one you want to be with for life let's me know that I am capable of anything in this life. Your love gives me the strength to be me. Your unselfish desire to be a great woman for me, our son, and our baby on the way leaves me breathless just thinking about it. You are an incredible woman, and I am so blessed by the fact that you said "I Do." Happy Anniversary! I loved you then. I love you now. I will love you forever.
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